Change

"Forgive my father"

I took you to the city

carried you in my pocket

a little blue and dog-eared

from long waiting

but still ready

an empty box

that never leaves my mind

I kept looking

over my shoulder

looking for your face

swaying like a pendulum

looking forward

holding back

looking forward

holding back

Until dizzy eye

couldn't see

I fell asleep

my heart calling

(the line was busy)

across time

for no answer

for the answer

for no answer

for the answer

So instead

I took your hand

and prayed

And began to wait

for you

Now instead of

chasing me

through days

and  two ways unsettled

wounded

and

willful

I wait for you

to come to me

to sit beside me

in a calm place

for us to smile

and not to speak

 but to be in a place

At Peace

unchanging

To Terah

And so we wander, in grief, towards the sun... is she rising, or setting?... How fragmented is our life, if not our reason for living?... How could I have known that such tears


would fall...


For days I prayed
For the right way
To pull covers and eternity

Over my head and dreams
would instead

Descend, in loving haze
A constellation daze

That would spell his name
Somewhere between Abraham

and home...

I never knew
how to bury you
Into a blinking sky

So now I will try

the ground.